Said Like It Is!

Proud to be

A murderer!!
Yes I am,
Proud I am,
She was murdered.

Loudly humming, by me she passes
Irritating and annoying
I caught a glimpse
She was obese,
A stripped coat covered her back
A malicious look on her face

As if forgetting,
Back she turned to me.
What does she want?
She holds a syringe and needle
Huh?
"In exchange for death,
A drop I need"

No way!!
Away she's whisked
Off she goes into thin air
A while later, her hum,
So unforgettable, is nearing
I await her approach,
But in thin air, No more hum
May be change of direction,
May be change of song,

In sudden,
A jab!! On my arm
A slap on the arm,
I glimpse,
Anopheles, her syringe and needle,
Taking off.
Not far off she sits catching breath

Angry I am.
Vengeful I become
Nuclear destroyer in arms
Creeping to her
A single dash of spray,
On the ground she lays,
The mosquito is dead
I am proud!

I must admit I've been a little too caught up in what I call motherly duties..., so much so that I forgot all about other things. Now that am tryna clean out the cobwebs, so to get back, though not to where I was, but to somewhere close, i see what rain and mud I have been through. Now that the storm is almost over, I'm glad to have made it thus far, through this rain....

Mariah Carey spoke it out for me, especially now when my parents wont hear a word about this new found love of my life... reason being, in his community, there are too many cultural beliefs that are still followed up to date. it's frustrating, and annoying and confusing and all, but somehow, somewhen....

When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you’re distraught and in pain without anyone

when you keep crying out to be saved
but nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can’t find your way home
You can get there alone
It’s okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you’ll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I’ll make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face
And should they tell you you’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate, stand tall and say-ay-yeah-yeah-hey-ey

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I live one more day
And I can make it through the rain
(Oh, yes you can)
Ooh, You’re gonna make it through the … rain

That says it all for me....

A.O.B
When we get the people at the MAU forest out, will it rain and end the drought as we need it. As in, if they are evicted today, will it rain tomorrow, or the day after?....

Why is it a big deal, in some communities, when someone's husband dies?... That now all the wealth becomes for those lazy bastards, who maybe caused his death so they inherit his wealth. Who said the widow is not hurt by her husband's death? Dare some skunk parade themselves that they want a single drop o what they dint work for... Chineke!! We shall see... we shall see....

Last month [read yesterday], i was heavily insulted by one guy at work. Am wondering what to do with him. And its really paining me, because I was silent and dint reply to any of his insults.

Well, the story behind all this is a long one.

When I was desperate and jobless [story for another day], this guy [John] came to me and offered to open up a business for me. And it looked like a really nice idea. So I consulted a friend about it, and she told me to sign an agreement with John stating that all these offers were out of good will.

When I asked John to sign the agreement, he backed out of the whole deal. So I sent him my CV, so to at least send if for me to anyone looking to hire people. He criticized my CV so much, telling me how much of a pity it was. Then he kept sending me emails of job vacancies that were way above my league. People needed to have masters and be over 35yrs and so on... I applied for all these jobs anyway, though i got a response for none, and neither was I expecting any. I was very discouraged.

A week later, he sent me an email on vacancies at his work place. So I applied as usual. And guess what!! They called me for an interview and I got the job. The job puts me at a higher rank than he is. So he said never to let anybody in that company know that I know him. And I respected that. We don't even say hi. All communication between us is through gmail chat.

Yesterday evening, we went past each other on the corridors and as usual we did not even look at each other, but when I passed him, he laughed. When I got back to the office, I decided to chat him up on gmail. I asked why he laughed at me when we passed each other, and am telling you whatever insults I read..... tsk tsk tsk! Am even embarrassed to tell those insults to anyone. I'd not even want anybody to know that I was ever insulted that way.

Now am wondering how to react...

The week is on. Last weekend, i learnt that a guy from my work place who's been on my heel like a shadow, was dating a chic from the same company, but is on leave. He told me he moved their relationship down, by a notch, because the gal is epileptic, and had not told him about it. The worst thing is, she does not know that this guy took their relationship a step backward.

I don't like this guy, even for a minute, but I've tried pushing him off even in public, but calling him a tick is an understatement. Now am even wondering if am farting honey. All the same, this week is based on having nothing to do with this guy. I succeed, and am happy, for i will have accomplished my goals.

I hope for us to have a nice week ahead...

Now, its Friday, and am really happy...

So much has happened during the week, i actually feel like i went through, July and August all together. All the same, am greatful to God for helping me through the week.

And it was a good experience, from drama, to sad, to angry, to missing my daughter, to eyes heavy with sleep for all week and so on and so forth...

Now lemmi brace myself for next week...
[how to deal with all these men and women, who seem to undermine my small size and soft-spokeness.]

More for next week, especially on this guy who's just hovering around me all week, grinning sheepishly....

Well, this is my second week at this new job. And boy oh boy, am so bored, all i do is count the hours. I wake up very early, at 5:00 am, so to be at work at 8:30am. And when i get there, am ot to touch the Pc if there's nothing of the company am doing with it. So i sit and stare all day, at nothing, or at the directory, until lunch time. I go to lunch, and at 2pm, am asked to make a few phone calls and thats it. 5pm, i should be going home. Not to exceed a minute there.

Now am really annoyed about the fact that i sacrifice my sleep, and am overcharged to get to work, just to go there and stare in thin air...

Let me shut down this Pc before this prefect of a guy comes to check what am doing.....

Bye bye internet... Welcome staring at directory!

Ok, today, I saw he most grotesque thing in my house....,

Lemmi just start from the beggining. I got myself a househelp from Kitale. I'l save you the details of getting her here for some day soon. That's not the issue. I have to teach her to switch on the lights, let alone flush the toilet and use toilet paper, after toiletting, Oh, and sit but not stand on the toilet seat.That's no issue. I'm really patient since, non of us was born knowing anything. We were all taught, or saw from somewhere. And right now, we cant say we know everything either. But I believe in asking.

The issue is, This morning, I decided since it is Saturday, and i aint going nowhere, we might as well do general cleaning, to this house which's got dust, you'd plant crops and they grow. As she was dusting, i was busy cleaning the bathroom/toilet. I kept wondering where the poo stench is coming from, even after frantically flushing the toilet severally, and spraying the freshener, and almost a half bottle of harpic had vanished in the toilet bowl.

I got the broom, so to sweep down the water. The smell intensified. Thank God for cleaning gloves, coz looking at the broom handle, I don know how it landed outside my house. The handle was all smeared with poo, and stinking to high heavens. I was sick like 4 times before I lost count.

You're asking what I did with or to her afterwards?... Am not so violent...

I called her to the bathroom, showed her how to clean the toilet again using all those disinfectants, and a toilet brush and told her, that sometimes poo refuses to go even if you flash severally, and thus fetch water from the tap into the bucket and pour int the toilet, and not use the broom handle. Then I told her to get the broom, lying on the corridor outside and take it to the bins, for collection by the gabbage collectors. She was very receptive, and did just that. {whoa!! Lord have mercy}

My gloves are well soaked in dettol, and soap, an am hoping to use them as soon as the smell of poo leaves my nose, and I don get sick when I see the damned gloves...

Am praying for a less grotesque weekend. But how worse could it get anyway?.. {uuh... Lord have mercy....}

It's been a while... yeah like a year past. I think even some keys have switched position, so please dont mind misspelled words. But yes, am back.

Was away doing a lot. Adventuring and venturing and more. But am really happy to be back. More will come as I come online more often. I'l tell you what I saw, read and heard when I was away.

All the same I aint changed, am still sayin it like it is folks...